Healers Journey
We’ve heard the terminology used so many times that it seems cliche; it might be, but that doesn’t make it any less true. I’m definitely someone who’s on a healers journey - I can’t stop searching or being a seeker to healing aspects about myself that could improve the quality of my health & life.
The irony might be & it could be said that the constant seeking & search might come from some kind of lack or never feeling like I’m good enough or done enough. I wouldn’t argue that therapeutic diagnosis, its certainly something I’ve already considered true regardless.
Having said that & looking back on my past with 20/20 vision, I can feel how this has always been a part of me & the difference now being that I can put it to words, as apposed to my past when it was just a feeling.
Despite what some might tell you, pain is the reason people start seeking, not pleasure. Pain is what gets people to start thinking differently about life & that was certainly true for me.
Many years ago, I became clear that I wanted to heal things about myself & my life. I wanted to see more clearly all those things I couldn’t see about myself & the world for that matter. That journey started when I was 29 & its not changed since.
As we wake up to seeing the dissonance within ourselves, we also develop the ability to see it in others, regardless of how different our lives are. It’s certainly a blessing, but in my past I might have called it a curse as well. What comes with seeing things clearly about ourselves, our family, friends, government, medicine, are tons of feelings that must be integrated. The feelings come from all those areas our eyes become opened up to things we don’t want to see . .
It’s not easy work to look & see all the shameful things about ourselves & our lives, that’s for sure; this is the toughest work I know of ... but it’s also the most rewarding. Besides, what’s the alternative, not looking at ourselves or others, in a way that has us staying blind to the truth? ... that sounds like an even worse fate than the pain to be on a healers journey - that sounds like an entire life filled with suffering to me.